I am the type of person that respects everyone for who they are, what they are… everything about them. If I don’t like what you do, who you do, or anything of that nature, that’s none of my business unless it brings harm to myself or my loved ones. With that being said, your sexuality who you lay down with at night, who you wake up to in the morning, has no bearing on me. I have no right to tell you who to love, what to love, and how to love. If that’s who you love, if that’s what you love, and that’s how you love it, so be it, enjoy yourself.
Recently I had a conversation with a friend, I was telling them that during the holidays I don’t do well. I get depressed & it’s just not a good time for me. They proceeded to ask me why then says, “Oh never mind, I know why.” Silly me, I thought they knew I was sad because my parents are deceased. Well, that wasn’t the case.
They proceed to tell me that my problem is that I am in conflict with myself as to what is right and wrong in God’s eyes. I said “excuse me I don’t follow you, I’m not understanding what you’re talking about.” I guess it caught me of guard because I didn’t see our conversation taking this turn. They go on to say that my lifestyle is an abomination in God’s eyes and that I need to change and pretty much getting in a relationship with a man and get married! A few months ago this same friend & I had a discussion about what the Bible said, what they believed, & they told me that they love me despite being a lesbian. So, this “change of heart” caught me of guard.
I’ve been gay all my life, that’s been no secret to myself & since I decided to be true to myself (come out of the closet) I’m able to see the beauty of life. I believe it was harder for everyone around me to accept the truth because, as far as they knew, I LOVED men. Hell, I was even engaged to a man!
I’ve grown up in the church all my life, I have a relationship with God, I’m at peace with who I am as a lesbian, & as a person over all. Everything is good, I’m in a solid relationship, I’m happy, successful, & I have everything that I need and have always wanted. How can God hate a relationship where I am striving for the best, I am healthy and happy, how can he hate that?
I’m a very nice person, really I am, I have a good heart but when you push me to the edge I don’t jump off, I come back swinging! So, I let my friend know that I understand their views and I respect their views but I will not allow them to judge me & pick me apart because they have an issue with how I live MY life. These “Christians” who have conflicts with Who I am, that is their problem, not mine! I’m good over here. They need to work on their issues & not worry about what’s going on in my household! Now, if someone wants to be in my life, & I allow them to be in my life, they need to understand I will not stand for ridicule, nor will I stand for being under a microscope because they think I’m in conflict. What’s going on in my life has nothing to do with their belief system.